So, I'm at the dentist the other day for my annual cleaning. I've got the gas mask on and I'm drifting out to lala land. If you wonder why I need nitris for a simple cleaning, I will tell you, I absolutely love my dentist, but hate dental work, all of it. My mouth is very sensitive, and I have a very low tolerance for pain.
I love nitris oxide. That slow ease into semi-consciousness. Your mind drifting to places and ideas that it never would otherwise. Forgetting every stress, every problem, every tragedy in your life, if only for an hour.
So as I lay there, drifting, floating, forgetting, I realize that this nitris, this laughing gas, is not unlike writing for me. When I write, I travel outside my body, I dream, I forget, I escape. I feel a kind of peace that can maybe be equated to meditating, sitting down with a drink after a long, hard day at work, or watching your child sleep.
And only when I'm done for the day, and I can't seem to write another word, am I eased back in to life, to its bills, and its phone calls, its conflicts, and all its stresses.
So, there it is, writing is my laughing gas, and as I cannot take dental work without the nitris, I can not take life without the writing.
I like this a lot. I've never had laughing gas. Maybe I need to request it, especially when I write. I'm definitely the traditional type - writing is painful to me. And necessary.
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Great post, Megan. I was really angry and things were kind of falling apart for me a few years back. And the biggest change in my life during that time was that I'd stopped writing. There were other variables as well, but that was the biggest one. I feel the same way. Writing is therapy for me.
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ReplyDeletethank you, beyond words, for that review!
I did NOT push the button... :)))
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