article in the Huffington Post by Mark Manson recently that posed this question. Actually his question was - what pain do you want? What pain do you want to sustain?
This is in respect to our wants. He asks those question instead of the standard question - what do you want out of life? This is because we all want the same things so they don't really mean anything. We all want to be happy and healthy.
I don't think anyone WANTS to suffer pain, so I ask what pain are you willing to suffer? That is the real question, and perhaps the key to if we will achieve the things we want out of life and how successful we will be at those things.
Just about everything we do takes a certain amount of pain, suffering and sacrifice, doesn't it? Maybe not physical pain, but mental, emotional?
I used to be a stay at home mom. When my kids went to school, this allowed me a lot of time for writing. When I got divorced I had to get a job. This took away writing time, kid time, cleaning time, shopping time. Basically half my day was suddenly gone.
But, I still want to write, I still want to be a good mom and that takes a lot of work and it can be very stressful.
What pain am I willing to suffer for my craft, my kids, my job, my health, my home?
I don't sleep well. I can probably count on one hand the good night's sleep I've had in the last three months. I'm not sure what it is completely. It could be stress, it could be that my mind works overtime and just won't shut up, it could be something else entirely that we haven't figured out yet. I've tried numerous ways to stay asleep, and none of them work consistently.
Me time. I have no idea what that is, really. I go to work, I get to my kid's events, I come home and try to work at writing or marketing, or I clean the house or run errands. I used to get massages and pedicures and get my hair did. I can't remember the last time I did any of those things.
I suffer exhaustion. This has been going on for close to a year now, and it's about more than just the lack of sleep or exercise because even when I sleep well and even when I was kickboxing regularly I was still having to take these crazy long naps during the day. I think I've pinpointed something, but not sure. I try to fight my way through my tired time, which is early afternoon, but even if I do, I'm pretty worthless unless I'm getting errands done. I can't really write or work through it.
I'm a broke bitch. I work part time. I make enough to get by. I could work full time, I certainly have enough to do at work, but I have writing goals. I want to be there for my kids while they're still around. But I can't take all the vacations I want or have everything I want.
My household. This includes my yard, garden, laundry, general cleaning filing...etc. It's all lacking. I keep my house as clean as possible. It's hard with 2 of my own kids and others coming and going often. I try to garden. I usually start off strong in the spring but get busy and have a fairly black thumb and things end up dying. My yard at times makes my house look like an abandoned crack house and the laundry gets washed, then ends up in a giant pile to fold. I try to get my kids to help, but ya know, they're teenagers.
My health. I eat well most the time but lately I've not been willing to
suffer the pain of exercise to get that body I want. And it's not so
much suffering the pain because I LOVE my kickboxing classes. It's a
combination of time, exhaustion and laziness and I would truly put
laziness in about 10% with the other two making up 45% each. I've
actually lost weight lately, but I'm not toned. My goal is to get back
to it, I've just not found the motivation yet.
I can't keep a relationship. Maybe I don't want to, I don't know. I certainly don't have time for one to get too serious, and it seems the men I meet are ready to move in and get married right now. I'm nowhere near that. I'd like a companion, someone to hang out with, but, they need to have a place to go home. And I need my own time. Time to write, time for my kids, time to hang out with my friends.
all encompassing pain for me. Though I try not to miss a soccer game or music gig, there are still things I feel I lack and lately I have been missing them like crazy and I know that's not all on me. They are teenagers and have their own agendas, but lately I think they've been feeling that lack of connection too. I've not cooked a meal in ages, we haven't just sat down and watched a movie together in forever. We're taking a day today. And we've decided that at least once a week we will sit down and cook and have a meal together and watch a movie or do something.
I guess those are my levels of suffering I endure for what I want. But I wouldn't say I WANT that pain. I deal with it because it's what I need to do right now for what I want in life. But I'm hoping all of it changes. I mean, at what point do we stop suffering? At what point does it all come into fruition?
So what pain are you willing to suffer to accomplish your goals?