Am I whining? Um, yeah, I suppose so. Am I jealous? Um, yeah I guess. Am I exhausted, tired, and frustrated? Definitely. That's why I want to go it alone. I want to try my hand at it myself and see if I get the same results or better. If I can do it myself and get the same results, why throw myself into the lion's den, ya know?
And I know I'm probably pissing some non published writers off right now, thinking I should be happy I was published. Don't get me wrong. I am, that is a HUGE accomplishment and it's not my intention to piss you off. I'm just speaking from my mind, my heart, and my soul. This is my experience. Not everyone's will be the same. Losing an agent mid-year and not having that support really sucked. It closes a lot of options.
I know this is something I need to get over, right now I just don't know how. Maybe putting this book out will help, will give me some of the peace I'm looking for you know, because I don't like feeling this way. It's painful and ugly and not someone I like to be.
Anyway, I think I'll stop ranting and give you my Friday Scribbles now.
Next in the Pandora Lineup:
Netflix of the Week: Submarine awesome quirky coming of age movie.
Book of the Week: Fellow 2k12er Katy Longshore's follow up to Gilt, Tarnish, came out this week, check it out.
Quote of the Week: "I find that it's nice to work with somebody and spin off on someone else's feelings. You get a little jaded by yourself." ~ Herb Alpert