This may be a daily occurrence for you, but not for me. It's usually bustling with excitement, jokes, tears, advice, news. I could refresh my page every few minutes and there would be five or ten new messages. Not anymore. This was my choice.
In many ways it's depressing, and I miss it. In other ways, it's peaceful.
I've had to make some difficult decisions as of late. Decisions that will change my life for awhile, but will hopefully bring me to a place where my mind, body, and soul are once again working together in harmony. A place that doesn't keep me idle, break my heart, or shatter me completely.
I need to be productive, and healthy, and whole again. I want to be happy in life. So, if you don't "see" me at my usual haunts, this is why. I'm still here, not disappearing completely, I'll still be blogging, writing, checking my email, popping in on facebook every once in awhile, just toning it down a bit. This is me trying to get my sanity back.
Thanks for following, reading, being a friend.
I leave you with a poem.
I comb my hair
intently
with purpose
Ensuring
every strand
is neatly in place.
My teeth are brushed
up and down
up and down
Bright shiny pearls
Open wide, look inside
I paint on my eyelids,
my cheeks,
my smile,
like a doll
come down off the shelf.
I put on my sweater,
my skirt,
my stockings
look down
check myself out.
what do you think?
Are you pleased?
Do I fit into
Your image
Of me?
Am I smiling enough?
Am I happy?
Appealing?
The answer’s no matter
Because what you see
Is not what I am
Not me.
Catch you on the flip side.
Kisses :*
Megan
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