Every so often I go through bouts of sleeplessness. Last night was one of those nights. I'd only slept for four hours when it was time to get up. I couldn't function, so I called in sick and went back to bed.
Why couldn't I sleep?
You know when you wake up and then your mind goes and you just can't get it to shut off? That was me last night.
I was thinking about my agent search, worrying about how long it was going to take. Wondering what happens if I don't get one.
I thought about finishing this rewrite that I've been working on for months now with no motivation.
Money
Relationships
Work
Writing
Medical issues
You know, all the life worries that pop into your head at 2 am.
I talked to my BF today. He gave me some very good advice. First, I need to make a list of the things that are in my control and work on them, the rewrite, the budget, querying agents.
Don't worry about the things that are beyond my control. There's nothing I can do about them.
He said I'm thinking backwards. He says I think "have, do be". If I have this, then I can do this, than I can be this. He says I should be thinking in reverse.
Be. Do. Have.
It makes a lot of sense.
Now, to make that list.
Maybe we should form a twitter group for writer insomniacs. This is exactly what happens to me, but usually at 3:00 am. Why is it the ideas are flowing then instead of during my daytime writing block? Then there are the worries....thanks for this gentle reminder.
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